but this is summer playing dumber than in fall

i discovered lorde mid 2013, the year before i was due to start high school and i was looming dangerously close to the end of childhood. the summer between 11 and 12 was when i experienced my first major episode of mental illness. lorde was there every step of the way i could feel my world changing, becoming something more dangerous and wonderful as i grew into adolescence. i have now reached the age lorde was when she wrote pure heroine and i can say for sure that there is something stupid and beautiful about 16. like she promised.

"All my life I've been obsessed with adolescence, drunk on it. Even when I was little, I knew that teenagers sparkled. I knew they knew something children didn't know, and adults ended up forgetting."